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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 02:02

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

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I did it because my mum asked me too!

I never cut or harmed myself..

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

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Comes on , in middle age.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

(And it was in our own minds.)

Why do I want to be caught sucking dick by my wife?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

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He resisted the act ,that day.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

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This is soul school!.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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She found it foreign!.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

A kid threw a stone at my car. I confronted his mom (who was nearby). She said, "You can't prove it was my son." How should I have reacted?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

So whats the point in blame.

All the time i was locked up.

What does it mean if I had a dream about my mom who passed 12 years ago waking up from her coma and asking for my dad? I have never had a dreams about her since she has been gone.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was 9 years of age.

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It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

We were not on the streets..

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I have no regrets .

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Especially a lifetime of it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I waited trembling.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I said to her

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I was scared of men, in general

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Im still living with it.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I think the readers, may guess!

And i lived it daily.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

They are buried together, in the same grave..

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My life is so biszare .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He knew the spot.

I will be 64.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She married twice! .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

But, we were locked up after school.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I could never make a relationship work though!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

But it wasn’t much.

I write beautiful poetry .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

She was in good health!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

So, i spoilt her more .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I don,t even have a pension.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Put me off passion for life!!

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Would this be the day?

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

When she asked me how she looked .

What did i know ?

I was seconnd youngest,

My family never makes their pension either.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

It was going to be , some day.

She wouldn,t have been !

Was to survive, this bastard.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

One cannot live in the past .

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

She loved him until the end.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was very sick at this time too.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We all went to grammer schools

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Who then, do I blame.?

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But ive been too sick for many years..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Ive learnt so much.

Why did i forgive my father ?

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.